Dec 2009 (270lbs) Feb 2011 (160lbs)
Smoker Non-Smoker
Meth Head Recovered
Lost Found
Confused Living in Clarity
Morbidly Obese Fit
Toxic Clean
Inferior Equal
Scared Facing my fears
Depressed Lifted
Sad Joyful
Afraid to let go Learning to forgive
Abused Survivor
Should Have Going in head first
Introvert Learning to find comfort in others
One An army of many
Frenzied Calm
Self Hatred Self Loving
Cold Warm
Anxious Peaceful
Inattentive Mindful
Sluggish Energetic
Trivial Vital
Worthless Valuable
Negative Positive
Weak Strong
Lazy Moving
Dead Alive
Who I was / Who I am. Plain and simple. I was lost but now I am found. In a 270 pound body I was dying a slow and very sad death. I write a lot about this Life Changing Journey not being just about weight for me. It was about saving my life on a mental / emotional / and spiritual level as well.
What you read here is me: The absolute truth.
Making this journey so public has helped me in ways that I can’t explain. It forced me to step outside of myself and see me for who I really was and more importantly who I wanted to become. I’m on a mission now. No one deserves to live the life I was living. Full of self hatred, self loathing and feeling as if there is nothing more to life than to sit and wait for it to leave you behind.
My mission is to move forward and build an army of people that care about who they are. To care about themselves and in turn to care about you. To feel loved and deserving of happiness and then to turn that loose onto you because even if you think you don’t deserve it:
I know you do.