I’m blogging so it can only mean one thing: I’m at the library! Not much time to get all my thoughts down (and the library computers are notoriously slow) so I’m shooting for the random thought layout and just gonna start writing and see where I’m at when my 60 minutes is up.
Let’s begin.
- I ate a piece of carrot cake this weekend! I had $5.00 in my pocket and a street fair in my neighborhood so I went there with the intention of buying food and not feeling any guilt about it. I walked the small yet very exciting “Art of Tacoma” street fair a few times looking at all the goodies and finally picked my target. It was delicious. I sat in some shade on a curb and just let my mind think whatever it wanted to think. I was not going to let it deter me from enjoying something that I not only deserved but also am allowed to eat.
- I didn’t count one calorie this weekend. I didn’t gorge myself on fatty foods out of a bag that I asked to be “super sized”. I didn’t eat a pint of ice-cream. I didn’t order a large pepperoni pizza with extra cheese and eat in a dark room with only the t.v. on. In fact, I ate out once for lunch and only ate half of my sandwich and some of the fries it came with and brought the rest home (which later went into the garbage because I can’t stand cold fries and no way in hell I was going to heat them up when there was good clean eating to be done in my house).
- I’m going to be running a 10k this coming Saturday. I’m trying to stay cool about the whole thing but it’s not working too well. I know two things will take place on race day 1) I will start 2) I will finish. Those are the only two things I care about. The race is on Vashon so lots of hills to be climbed. I hope to finish in 90 minutes but I’m not going to hold my breath on that time.
- Yesterday I ran a 3.3 miles sans electronics. No music, no heart rate monitor, no watch. It was a beautiful process to run, listen to my breathing and just have a conversation with myself about how life is going.
- Tomorrow is the first meet and greet for the TrekTriathlon taking place on Sept 19th. I am thrilled and scared beyond words to go only because it will reinforce what I already know to be true: I am going to be doing my first triathlon in approximately 10 weeks!!!
- I will also be going to a meet and greet meeting for Team in Training. If I like what I see then I’ll be joining. My event that I’m shooting for? The Amica 1/2 marathon on November 28th. That’s right, I said it HALF MARATHON BABY!
- The scale is on the downward move again after seeing close to a 5 pound gain since my last OWiS (#27 = 200.8) a little more than a week ago. I identified why there was a gain (stress) and systematically went about getting myself to a much calmer state of being. It’s working and I look forward to pulling up my big girl panties and getting back to business.
- I miss all my VBB(s). I’ve only been able to read a few of them via my phone since I’m cutting out the internet usage while at home. I find so much strength in reading every struggle / victory / frustration / accomplishment / movement forward / gain / loss / slump / triumph. So stinkin proud of everyone!
- Life is moving forward.
- I am in control.
I literally wrote on my wrist today Just.Keep.Moving. Because everytime I see it I will think of you and keep on moving forward no matter what. We will get past this phase.
Not only are we going to get past this phase, we are going to pass it with our heads held high cause we deserve to get what we want out of life, no matter how hard we have to work to get it!
We miss you too!
I am very proud of this process you are going through and how you are handling it all.
Thanks Rinn!
You totally conquered this past weekend. You didn’t count calories and you did not blow up! See…you totally got this thing….now come train me!!! I also saw the pic of the carrot cake you had on Twitter. Not only did it look good but I saw fear in it’s…..errrr…frosting! You did not fear it but it totally feared you. Why you ask? Because it had no control over you.
You rock….now seriously….come train me!! LOL
Vinny, the great thing is that I don’t need to train you brother. You’re already doing what needs to be done and if you feel that you aren’t, I have all the confidence in the world you know how to make it happen.
Tara, this was needed for you. Great job handling it.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE running with nothing. I cant stand listening to music. the only thing i listen to is the lady on my run keeper app that says how long I have run and my pace. It is so freeing to not have to listen to something.
How great did the cake taste?! did it have rasins? Nuts? I love carrot cake!
Walnuts. No raisins. It was fabulous! Very little guilt with it so that made it even better!
Excited to read about your half training! Not sure I’d like to be at the very end of my taper on Thanksgiving Day, but looks like a really cool race (completely worth a Thanksgiving taper) and I think you’ll love it!
Hi Carina, thanks for stopping by. I hope it’s worth it cause I do love me some turkey!
Tara, I’m SO glad you are working out your stress and taking care of you. I’m excited to hear all about your 10K Sunday, I know you’ll do great! And SUPER excited to hear about your tri meetup, too!
The tri meet up was spectacular. Going to write a blog about it asap! The 10k will be awesome no matter the outcome (at least that’s what I’m trying to convince myself of lol)
Tara I love the bulleted post approach. I will format my comments the same way.
– YES! Carrot Cake is awesome. And delicious. I’m glad you indulged and enjoyed every second.
– See? Healthy eating can happen all on its own without the calorie counting or stress.
– Yes you will finish your 10K this weekend. I know this to be true.
– Running without music is strangely therapeutic. There’s something soothing about spending that kind of quality time with yourself.
– Good luck with trektriathalon – I hope you like it/them.
– Holy half marathon and onederland plans my friend! Awesometastic!
I think I may try to run the 10k without my music! Lord knows I need the therapy lol.
Tara,
you are doing fantastic. It is the effort we put into things that allows us to improve ourselves. One step at a time along the path leads you to the top of the mountain.
best of luck to you!
One.Step.At.A.Time!
Amen to that!
That’s awesome that you had such a kick-ass weekend Tara! Good for you for making it through without counting calories, that’s a wonderful place to be!
Good luck on your 10K this weekend, I know you’ll do great. And I am SO stoked for you that you’re planning a 1/2 marathon in November!!!
You are making such great progress, and a constant source of inspiration, KEEP IT UP 🙂
Thanks Brandon. You too are always inspiring me to push that extra bit. I will definitely be thinking about you while running!
Hi Tara –
I met you at the Trek Sally Edwards event tonight – I was next to you and have lost 100#. 🙂 It was great meeting you and I hope to see you again as we get ready for this insane race!
Cheers –
Kerrie
Kerrie!!!!!! It was so awesome to meet you last night. I thought about you while driving back to Tacoma and am so impressed with your journey thus far!! I hope we can continue to stay in contact while we travel this road!
YAY!!!
if I possessed the ability to rock the bullets in my comment I would.
Dear Miz, I bet you could rock the bullets if you tried. You rock everything else! FOR REALZ!
I’m glad things are looking up!
I’m brand new to your website and a new Twitter follower of yours. Thank you for your honesty in your blogposts as you share your triumphs and pitfalls with the rest of us. I have lost a little over 60 pounds in the last two years and am working on getting the last 6-8 pounds off. Thank you for being vulnerable enough to not verbalize your posts through rose-colored glasses and for letting it all hang out there. I’m struggling to find honesty with myself and with this process and learning to really see the new body in front of me and celebrate my successes, on scale and off. You rock, Tara and I’m stoked for more posts!